but.. Why?

When I first became a Christian back in '98 I didn't fully understand the extremities that came with it.. When I decided to dedicate my life as the Lords back in '03 I found the confidence that allowed my faith not to waiver regardless.. When I decided to go buck wild rebellious back in '07 hittin up the glamorous hollywood nightlife corrupt with the devils juice and candies, I found myself so engulfed in my own sins that I started to turn the blind eye to anything that would lead me to any feelings of guilt.. That time regardless of my doings I always found that strength inside me that never questioned my faith in God..
Now Don't get me wrong, I've had my own uncontrollable events that came about during my 24 years of existance that led me to question God, many many times..

The inevitable: "But God.. Why me...?"

Its been exactly 20 days today since the passing of my dear friend.. After his departure I re-evaluated a lot of things in my life, I decided to die to myself and follow Christ.. The hardest part of choosing Christ is introducing Him to my friends.. Its like getting into a relationship and having that excitement of introducing Him to all ur friends, but the thing is that they already "know" about him.. They just don't "know" Him personally.. Some have a negative outlook and some a positive.. Regardless they both ask me the question.. WHY??? The universal question that can pop all curious bubbles..

"Why?"

If I got the miraculous opportunity to choose any super power of my choice, it would have to be the power of being able to answer all questions of life.. Knowing the answers to the universal question: "why?".. Correct me if I'm wrong about this but doesn't God have this ability? The power to answer all questions in life? Am I capable to ask Him for you? Yes.. Am I able to give u an answer? Honestly, I don't know, possibly?.. Will God answer your questions if u ask him directly yourself? Yes, yes he will! When? I don't know..

But I do know this:

"suffering produces perseverance,

and perseverance-character,

and character... Hope" Rom 5:9

And isn't HOPE enough to get u by?

-live productively