Romance

"What great gravity is this that drew my heart towards yours? What great force collapsed my orbit, my lonesome state? What is this that wants in me the want in you? Don't we go at each other with yielded eyes, with cumbered hands and feet, with clunky tongues? This deed is unattainable! We cannot know each other!

I am quitting this thing, but not what you think. I am not going away. 

I will give you this, my love, and I will not bargain or barter any longer. I will love you, as sure as He has loved me. I will discover what I can discover and though you remain a mystery, save God's own knowledge, what I disclose of you I will keep in the warmest chamber of my heart, the very chamber where God has stowed Himseld in me. And I will do this to my death, and to death it may bring me. 

I will love you like God, because of God, mighted by the power of God. I will stop expecting your love, demanding your love, trading for your love, gaming for your love. I will simply love. I am giving myself to you, and tomorrow I will do it again. I suppose the clock itself will wear thin it's time before I am ended at this altar of dying and dying again. 

God risked Himself on me. I will risk myself on you. And together, we will learn to love, and perhaps then, and only then, understand this gravity that drew Him, unto us."

-blue like jazz (pages 149-150)

We realize....

SOS 1:2

Oh, to be loved by you is such a wonderful thing. 

"Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth-- for your love is more delightful than wine." Song of Solomon 1:2

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Ana-Marie & William

Everything about this wedding was absolutely beautiful to no faults. I was not just honored to be part of this fabulous union but I was most honored to be graced by two genuinely kind hearted souls who have come together as a whole in the union of love under God and loved family & friends. They've come a far way along the road but most importantly, this day was long awaited. The little details about the wedding itself was made together with alot of time invested and most importantly with so much love. The bride's ideas blossomed and her personality just shined through every eccentric detail that captured her hearts and minds creations. It showed me alot more about her personality and how beautiful she really is both inside and out. And to have been able to celebrate and be a part of this day was more than a blessing that I could ever deserve. Check out the photos below, although it does not even do justice to the beautiful weather and people that filled this place. 

Enjoy,

To Ana & Will!  

Growing up

This weekend I had a great epiphany about my life. The current situations I catch myself in and the way my actions have been affecting my friends and those around me. I've come to step back and re-analyze how my actions and words have been replicating that of my own father. Growing up being raised by my dad allowed me to see the effects of one selfish act or word. That one act and word can leave an impressionable scar in the hearts of those he loves. And now I'm seeing myself placed in the same perspective and realize that I, too, don't even realize that my actions have consequences and that I'm more mistaken for than I'd like to be. What stirs up in my head is not exactly expressed in the way I'd like it to be when I actually do show what I'm thinking or how i am

Feeling. I'm also realizing that I need to start shaping up now for the better and to start figuring myself out. I've acquired a good amount of self actualization material to understand my own personality and needs, wants and desires and future plans. Now, the work of figuring things out has come and I'm embarking on a new journey of self discovery. It's exciting at the same time as kind of annoying. I've become so comfortable where I'm at but I know deep within that this place of stagnancy only prohibits me from moving forward and growing as the woman I'm blooming to be for my future husband, kids and self. I know I'll never have everything figured out all the time and I have to learn how to stop putting that much pressure and guilt on myself for not having everything figured out by now but to learn that everyone has a different timeline and that us as humans are all on the same plane. We're all people who develop and grow. Some who learn faster than others and some who take their time to learn. But in the end we all arrive at the same destination. Entering into heavens doors and walking in the shadow of Jesus. Mimicking his actions and shadowing his words. What would Jesus do? 

Story of my life.