Time heals Humans..

When a human being first experiences some kind of pain they automatically react.. whether it be by physical pain or emotional pain. Pain somehow only lasts temporarily.  If a human is healthy, the body will heal itself- not instantly.. slowly but surely.. same with TIME- time will heal open emotional wounds.  A human can temporarily place a "band-aid" on a wound or actually do some crazy healing by leaving it open to let the wound heal itself.  I have come to see within myself, as well as in others, that TIME HEALS. It's an amazing concept to fathom actually. The fact that time.. can.. heal.. human.. emotions..

"every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end"

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Daughters

so a year and a half has passed since i last spoke to or saw my biological father. after a year and a half of silence from my dad who kicked me out of his home has finally contacted me. we're having dinner with my brother, who i haven't seen since december, this saturday. talk about family matters, ey? seeing my dad calling me on my cellphone and hearing his voice on the other line used to bring this tention upon me like a dark cloud of fear that surrounds me making me tremble but now it's different.. i feel a lot more stronger to stand up to him instead of being a victim of his orders. maybe this is his way of changing and reconciling things. maybe it's his way of showing that he still cares about family. so they say, blood is thicker than water.

Challenges

"Turn your challenges into changes

And changes into actions"

In everyday life there are many challenges one must face whether it's at work/ school/ family/ friends/ co-workers.. etc.. once a challenge is met it's up to that individual to either let it defeat you or to make it a change- take a CHANCE and then reciprocate that into actions. Then one's life will change. I believe when someone does things that makes them happy everyone else's life becomes MERRY, happy and good! When one starts dealing with things that hurts an individual then others do get hurt as well. It's like a frequency we give out. One negative thought could rot away a colony! Therefore "thoughts become things".. the more positive energy one gives off sparks a plethora of positive frequency to the world.. !! Change the world into a more enjoyable positive place.. one positive thought at a time..

LG.. Life's Good.. "if you think it's good.."

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The Cutting Edge

"I hurt so much
I bleed."

Pain is a reminder that they are alive when they feel dead inside.
"It's a way of feeling something in the presence of nothing."

happy. not the perfume.

i have a lot of needs. the main need in my life right now is happiness. i need to be happy. if i'm happy i realized the world is happy around me. when i'm happy i'm able to uplift other people. i can support. i can advise. i can do many things when i'm happy. i realized i cannot function when i am built up with emotions. emotions are not my friends. we just don't mingle well together. we're just not meant to be. but happiness. when will i ever meet you? when will you ever find me? you come and go like my parents did. you stay for a little while then you leave me abandoned to fend for myself like my mom left me. i just wana be. i want to be happy. i want happiness to be me. i want us to be intertwined together like twizzlers. i really need you to find me now. god, help me i need you.

-hardly living productively...

Trials, Tribulations, Thorns...

Sometimes I feel as if my life would be so much better if I died right now. But then again if I died today i wouldn't have a life to live any more. Therefore i must be happy for my life as of now. Sometimes Death sounds lovely. It's more lovelier to not handle certain situations because it's the easy way out. Most of the time people like me want the easy way out. It's all I know. If someone isn't being good to you, just leave. If the relationship is not working, just break up. It's hard as F@#% to stick with another human being when all your life all you've seen is your parents just divorce thru papers, not working out their love for each other just because they aren't the person that you thought they were in the first place. I blame what I saw growing up on my current relationship right now. I am in turmoil with my emotions. They just float around like clouds in the sky. A plethora of anger aggrevates my soul and haunts me to sleep. I know I should find solutions to my anger issues that I try to hide away in the dark little crevaces that no one can see or touch but when someone gets too close somehow that anger that was so hidden starts to creep up and haunt me. It comes up on me like a dark shadow that comes upon the sky when the clouds start turning gloomy. As dark as all this may sound my soul yearns for one thing. my heart yearns for one thing. my mind and body yearns for one thing. PEACE. Sometimes our body acts out with this anger and the most common thing to do is hurt.. not others but thy self. Sometimes both. Sometimes none at all. sometimes our bodies just become a furnace of anger it's like fire that rages and burns a house down. That is exactly what my anger does to me sometimes. It burns my whole insides sometimes i feel like my anger is eating away at my intestines and my organs. Sometimes i feel like everything that comes out of my mouth is fire that anyone standing close enough could and most likely will get burned. I'm working on this as this was the main topic of yesterdays Sermon. If we don't deal with the guilt and shame inside the likely result will be anger. I don't know how to go past step 1. It's as if my life has become a revolving cycle of emotions that never fade away. Is there ever going to be happiness that meets me during the time that I am alive? Will I ever find security? Will I ever be stable enough to handle men and what they have to bring into my life? All these questions that float around inside my mind that control my emotions. I am so

I NEED GOD....

Prayer

It seems as if praying to God comes up immediately when someone's sick, in dire need, death, fear, for only the bad things that happen in life...

What about when things are going well? You're entirely joyfully happy. Things can't get any better than this type of mode.. does prayers get lifted up then, too??

It's a random thought I had today especially as Christ Resurrection is coming up.. I'm trying to stay pure in thought. Close to the Lord and being thankful for the little things in life. Like my brothers Easter egg scavenger hunt scheduled for this morning! Everything is a blessing from above. Take it as it comes. Handle life as it goes. Let things slide on by so that there is room for new happenings to come on thru. And.. Be Thankful..

Pray.. it makes.. a difference...


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