The Journey

of a thousand miles begins with the first step...

I came into 2010 with a big sha-bang! Starting off the new year by shedding my old coping mechs & ways of living to putting on some new remedies- my new self that God is refining me into. With this new enlightenment, I've been totally skipping out on thoroughly going through the process and skipped right to getting ahead of myself! AGAIN, it's the whole- control thing! God is God, I am not! I speed walk & try to run my way through life (it's just how I was accustomed to growing up, sometimes I really can't help it but I'm trying!) so I tend to make myself feel like I'm getting somewhere instantly by controlling the process of growth when the growth process controls itself. In reality it's not about how fast I'll get to my destination. THAT is what I'm coming to see.. the journey is not about a destination, it's about LIFE. the journey IS life itself. I feel like I'm at a point where I've lost my breathe, I've reached my max capacity that running any farther I'm pretty much guna faint. Hence, I'm at a rest stop where I need to stop the running and start pacing myself. Again, it's not about how fast I'm going, it's about following God through life. Time and time again I come to points in life where I have to just STOP, adjust my focus back to Christ and take my sweet time to enjoy my surroundings while strolling through life, enjoying the weather and the people walking alongside me. It's about finishing together, NOT how fast I can finish alone. This comes to show that even in my healing process it's not about passing through it alone but allowing myself to take the risks of vulnerability (as frightening as it already sounds) and investing in friendships that has substance. But that is in and of itself a whole new entry. For now, I have taken my first [few] steps :)

-Live Productively