"you can only give away what you already have inside yourself. True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions."
Sometimes in the path of life there can be times to give and times to receive. I have entered into a season of receiving. It's not that kind of selfish receiving where it's all ME ME ME, like the seagulls in Finding Nemo when they yelp MINE MINE MINE like a million times out of their selfishness. It's a receiving from God that I just have to bask myself in. But the only problem is, I HATE IT! I hate it because it's a time where I don't look to my left or to my right to receive from people, like I normally would. It's a time where the only way to look is UP. sometimes literally I have to look to the sky and gaze upon the vastness of how great the world is to remind myself that I have a great God who is the one leading me in this time! It's a season of emptying out of myself, grieving over certain areas of my life and completely finding myself broken and emptied out. I know I've written previously about an emptying out but I am starting to continuously see that it's an emptying out to be filled once again. I honestly hate it. There are times where I will cry sporadically out of no where. There are times where I will laugh til I can't breathe because I enjoy the happiness and there are also times where I just clock out mentally and emotionally just because.. I don't know quite yet why this is happening but I know that there is a reason for it and whatever God is trying to do with me, he sure is making me into a piece of clay for a master piece to be sculpted. This gives me enough hope to endure in this refining process.
-live productively
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