Very much at peace with myself

Though the world around me seems to be in utter chaos, my heart and my spirit within remains calm.. It's been a long time coming for me to reach where I am now. I don't know if it's from the years that's passed or if I can say that it's from life experiences? Maybe a collaboration of both brings me to a place of perfect harmony. Although I am not exactly where I imagined myself to be at 27years old. But then again, I never really pondered deeply about where I wanted to be at 27.... I just know that in my former years, being married at this time was the only life goal I really imagined for myself. But being where I am now and seeing my close beloved ones married, divorced, having kids, going thru the stages of life .. I'm coming to see that marriage is just not for me quite yet and I'm okay with that. I guess being raised in such a conservative Korean cultured church led me into thinking that-- life is the same for everyone and that if you believe in God and have complete faith in Him, everything will work out... Was I surprised when all that didn't come to be fulfilled in my life. I mean, I believe in God whole heartedly but is it my lack of faith that I wasn't raised like the normal Korean family or that I didn't have everything provided for me as I was growing up? Did I lack in my belief in God? I think not! In John 9.. It talks about a Man who was born blind. Jesus' disciples end up asking him if it was, "this man or his parents who sinned, that he was born blind?" (vs2). But Jesus answers back by saying that it was, "neither this man nor his parents who sinned but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him." I think this story stuck with me after last weeks sermon topic at Living Way regarding prayer. And I refer back to it because I don't think everyone is born the same. I don't think everyone has got what our society has called the norms. I think some are greatly blessed and I think that some people must work a little harder to keep on par. But it's both okay because God is the one who sees all and provides for all. So, in truth, we are all on par under the Lord and reign of Jesus Christ. And because at the cross were all sinners and saved by His grace, I'm all the more thankful and at peace with myself because I have not much that I lack because he had fulfilled within me what the world can never have me achieve.