Dear _______,

I haven't been blogging much about my personal life as of late because of all the eyes that have been on me. Or so, that I feel are on me. 

Does anyone, other than my future self even read this blog? I have a hard time of letting this blog go because of all the time that's lapsed from recording daily to monthly to yearly blogs. About life and death, the new and the old, the past and the future. There's so much of myself embossed in this blog it's hard to shut it down and start anew.

In the earlier years of this blog I was ecstatic than the norm to have my mind and words scripted on these pages but now as I have gotten older and (a little bit) more wiser, I'm coming to see that life is a lot more easier living discreetly. Less time in the web and more time living. I think that's why once i get married and have kids, although I do see a lot of moms posting on FB every/single/day, shout out to moms! I think I probably would do the same, although I was gonna post that I would enjoy life a lot more off the screen but I guess with kids and a family it's hard not to want to share how exciting life has become. I guess what I'm trying to say is that my life has been pretty boring lately. I don't go out much, I don't socialize as much as I once did and now most days have become such a routine. You'll know exactly where I am at the same hour of the days. Day after day. Week after week. Month after month. I'm usually home, if not, at work. All the filler times I'm talking on FaceTime with my long distance boyfriend or enjoying mollie (my chihuahua)'s company. She's calmed down quite a bit and she is doing well! As you can see below. 

It will be our 2nd anniversary together this year, in a couple of months. And at the same time, I will be celebrating 9 months with my love this month. Just in time for Valentine's day. Nothing new. No exciting news as of yet but I'm hoping that with this new year brings fresh new beginnings :-) 

"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." 

Lamentations 3:22-23

I'm praying that this new year brings new insights, new growths and new life. 

-Live Productively