This past Sunday, my pastor spoke about a profound topic that gripped me from the moment he started talking about the importance of inner healing- going back to the inner child and embracing her, telling her it's going to be okay and seeing Jesus carrying her in his arms. It was this powerful image that the Lord personally gave me as a testimony to share how He was there through it all, carrying me.
By the grace of God, I have come to this point in my life where I am confident in the God who guides me and leads my path, giving me the strength + confidence to be strong enough to go back into the deeper areas in my past that are dug so deep that it's not visible to the naked eye. I know that some areas in my life that I've been deeply wounded go deep because it shows in the way I feel towards certain situations and people, the way I act and the things I say at certain times of my life. These moments are what I want to live for the glory of God, not for my selfish pleasurable gain or to be self-seeking but to be able to look past my hurts and embrace those who are hurting themselves. Even if these people have caused deep wounds in my life. To be able to look at my dad with love and tell him that I love him without expecting anything in return, or to apologize to my brother for neglecting him by putting my own defense up to protect myself, or to be able to look in the eyes of a past love and see the great person that he is becoming. It's in moments like these where my heart feels the fullness of God, exceeding what I could never have done in my own efforts and works.
I only look forward to more freedom in my life as I go back to areas I was never strong enough to go back to and an outpouring of His Spirit in my life, even in the hard times clearly knowing that He's the one carrying me through it all!
By day the Lord directs his love,
at night his song is with me--
a prayer to God of my life
Psalm 42:8
-Live Productively
Amen.
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