live happily

these days i really want to change my blog name to live happily or love productively or something. just because the phase of my life that i am transitioning into seems to be more calm and not so emotional. i like to write but what scares me after is going back to read what i wrote. some dark times of my life i can write the most profound things that i didn't even imagine i could do. the pain i once felt at that time of my life and the emotions that conjured up to the surface that inspired me to write out my thoughts. now that some things that once used to hurt and bother me does not no more because maybe i've matured or maybe it's not worth the torturing of myself anymore. or maybe it's this spiritual realization that when in life you have nothing left u look up and see God. so maybe when God takes everything away and leaves you opening your hands in wonder as to why you have nothing left, maybe it's time to just be thankful for the hardships. the pains and the hurts that this world has to offer because ultimately. God will save you

-liveproductively